Lost In The Sound of Separation

Im feelin’ all superhuman you did this to me..

heroheroinex — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 12:34:00 +0000

you don’t know what you do to me

i’m falling for you and you don’t even know it

fuck , i’m crazy about you

i wish you knew.

Superhuman

“Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How’d I survive when I could barely speak
Barely eat, on my knees

But that’s the moment you came to me
I don’t know what your love has done to me
Think I’m invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don’t know what you’re doing to me with your love
I’m feeling all superhuman you did that to me (ohh)
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman (superhuman)

Strong
Since I’ve been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I had it all along
I can see tomorrow

For every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It’s unbelievable to see
How love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don’t know what you’re doing to me with your love (to me, oh oh)
I’m feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

I feel so superhuman (superhuman)
I feel so superhuman

It’s not a bird, not a plane
It’s my heart and it’s going gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you I feel like I can do anything
Going going, I’m gone away in love

You changed my whole life (oh)
Don’t know what you’re doing to me with your love
I’m feeling all superhuman you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

Superhuman”

you make me melt, like an iceberg on the sea..

heroheroinex — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 12:40:34 +0000

Fuck, you make me melt so bad.

The sight of your face and your smile just melts me and i lose all interest in my surroundings, thats why i nearly walked straight into someone else LOL

YOU ARE SO FUCKING HOT!

SIZZLE

HOT

HOT HOT HOT!

i would so do you any day.

all over me..

heroheroinex — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 12:37:22 +0000

“ For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks, the ultimate, the last test and proof, the work for which all other work is but preparation.”

This is a quote by Rainer Maria Rilke. I saw it at the end of a movie called Loving Annabelle. Its a good movie. I like it a lot.

Here’s my favourite scene.

let her go..

heroheroinex — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 06:52:55 +0000

” don’t hold on to someone when you’re not being held on to in return.

it’s not love. “

a twist in my story

heroheroinex — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 14:02:48 +0000

“Slow down, the world isn’t watching us break down
It’s safe to say we are alone now, we’re alone now
Not a whisper, the only noise is the receiver
I’m counting the seconds until you break the silence
So please just break the silence

The whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn’t matter to me
I’ll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can’t take my eyes off of you

And I’m longing, for words to describe how I’m feeling
I’m feeling inspired
My world just flip turned upside down
It turns around, saw that’s that sound
It’s my heart beat, it’s getting much louder
My heart beat, is louder than ever
I’m feeling alive, I’m feeling alive

My whispers turn to shouting
The shouting turns to tears
Your tears turn into laughter
And it takes away our fears

So you see, this world doesn’t matter to me
I’ll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can’t take my eyes off of you

I’m finally waking up, a twist in my story
It’s time I open up, and let your love right through me
I’m finally waking up, a twist in my story
It’s time I open up, and let your love right through me
That’s what you get
When you see your life in someone else’s eyes
That’s what you get, that’s what you get

So you see, this world doesn’t matter to me
I’ll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can’t take my eyes off of you
This world doesn’t matter to me
I’ll give up all I had just to breathe
The same air as you till the day that I die
I can’t take my eyes off of you “

I’m currently in love with Secondhand Serende’s new album called A Twist In My Story.

My favourite song from their is the album title A Twist In My Story.

So anyway, an update on my life. Its been 3 weeks without my camera. Its been fixed for free even though it ws 2 weeks over its warranty. I just need someone to pick it up from the Seven Hills store. So many things i need to take a photo off.

Anyway back to my crushing of older people, well 5 or 6 yrs older.
Is so FUCKING HOT! LOL

if you love her, let her go..

heroheroinex — Wed, 06 Aug 2008 11:57:41 +0000

My last blog had lots of views which is good. So yeah i have so much to do but i’m so not bothered anymore. I got a bio assignment due the week after next week then a religion assignment due the week after, then an ipt one and then exams. So not bothered anymore. So lazy. The rankings are going to be reset next term anyway so why try anymore.

School has been very boring lately, i mean it feels like i have done nothing this term , we have had so many disruptions. Retreat soon next term. The only thing i’m looking forward to . Its at some place called Namaroo or something. Its funny, after all the dramas at yr 9 camp. They said we weren’t going to have a yr 11 retreat. Yr 9 camp was the worst and the best. So many things happened and it was an emotional time for everyone. One of the dramas was someone vandalsing a staff member’s car by putting horse poo on the windscreen. The person only did it for fun because she was bored. Another person she was with actually filmed the incident. Then the next morning we all got a grilling and we were all accused. Then later that night someone dobbed someone in and i found out i was sleeping in the same room as the personw who filmed it. I actually got to watch the whole incident on the camera. Friendships were torn about that night becasue of it and a lot happened. The person who did it got sent home. Then that same night some girls were drinking alcohol at night in their rooms. Somehow the teachers found out and raided their rooms and found it. Some other girls got sent home and one of them throw up in the teacher’s car. Then there were rumours that some girls were injecting drugs in their rooms. The teachers also raided their rooms but nothing found. All this eventually got out to the whole school. The second night was the most emotional. I remember after mass, nearly everyone in the room was crying and everyone was comforting each other. Everyone was so emotional. Ihave never seen a room of over 100 people all cry before. It was touching in a way. Apart from that there was also my own dramas that i won’t go into. It made me go all numb and have a i don’t care anymore attitude which was good in a way. I really didn’t care if anything bad happens and took many risks. I remember going on the flying fox and giant swing, i remember the adrenalin rush i felt, the feeeling off flying made me feel invincible, like i could do anything. Its hard to explain that feeling. But it was all thanks for you that i felt that. I hated you then but i’m thankful now.

I can’ t wait for yr 11 retreat, we have all grown and matured but i still have a feeling we will still be bad. We had a bad reputation as a year group back then. But it was FUN!

Faceback owns myspace!
I go on facebook more now. so fun and and more people i know are on faceboook. I am “keeping up with the oldies” as Di had said to us. Myspace is too addictive for me. I went on last night and i kept pressin gon home to refresh the page. So time consuming. My decision to keep off myspaceis good for many reason .

I wonder who actually reads my blogs anyway, if you do , please comment the blog or add me to facebook. we can be friends! Here’s my link http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=673025294

i miss you more than words can say..

heroheroinex — Mon, 04 Aug 2008 10:42:39 +0000

I haven’t blogged in a few days now. I have been lazy and i haven’t been bothered. Anyway the last few days have been good.
Lets start with Tuesday last week, I found out that i was getting a Mary MacKillop Award at the Mary MacKillop Day Mass. I was happy. Then fast forward to Friday, the actual day i got the award which is a glass trophy thing. Only 15 people get it each year for living up the school motto “Called To Life” and Mary MacKillop’s saying “never see a need without doing something about it. Mrs Gesson says it is prestigious. Anywau after a long mass, I finally got my award. I was so scared when i had to walk on stage. I didn’t once look at the audience. I got mine for “the support and help of others” or something along that line, all i remember was support. I wonder which teacher or teachers nominated me so it. I will never know because it is confidential. Getting that award really boosted up my confidence. Shows that i am a nice person and people around me do notice that. The funny thing is that i’m so shitty at giving advice and helping people by saying the right thing when they come to me but i try my hardest.
After the mass was the food buying the we had the same band as the last 2 years, The 80′s Flashback Band. So sick of them! I’d rather the lead singer, Nicolas’ other band with original songs called Happenstance or something like that. I took photos of one of the guitarist so i could tag him on facebook. We are friends on facebook.

Then after school Friday was bowling night with my wyd group. Its like a reunion after 2 weeks because they miss us too much. Around 30 of us turned up. Was pretty fun ! I suck though.
I met a boy who i talked to on the net and went to wyd with in the same group but did not know it was him. We didn’t even talk but he knew who iwas. I identify him as purple hoodie boy. After bowling went to maccas. Maccas was the best. We pretended to be left over Viet wyd pilgrims and started talking asian and acting stupid. The funny bit was when they bought cones and took forever to count all the coins to pay for them. The manager was not happy. Then the other half of the boys walked in and you shouldhave seen the manager’s face. I bet she called security to watch us because out of no where a security guy walked and and just stoood there watching us. The guy serving me sounded very confused, I had to tell him 3 times what i wanted and then tiff decided she wanted nuggets but he said they had none and then she was trying to decide on what she wanted. She did minnie minnie minnee moe and she changed he rmind again. it took her 5 mins to decide. Was so funny. Then we played in the playground!
After we went skirmish laser tag. Was so FUN!
Also on the night, the first ever Cabra Youth group formed. It was random really. Van and Di randomly asked us how we felt about forming the youth group where we will have an outting every month then a camp. The youth group currently consist of only yr 11 mmc girls and yr 11 pats boys. We need to expand more. Thats all for now.

I was bored and here is the stats for this blog.

“Please tell me why
I write these lines
When you’re nothing but a memory
That burns a hole
Deep inside my mind
And I keep these words to myself
And when I close my eyes
I miss you more
I miss you more
More than words can say”

I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away the life I’ve led..

heroheroinex — Tue, 29 Jul 2008 14:01:43 +0000

“I’m alive but I’m losing all my drive
‘Cause everything we’ve been through
And everything about you seems to be a lie,
A guiltless, twisted lie
That made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by.”

Tonight is Secondhand Serenade night for me. I just downloaded their new album and some old songs.

Anyway ecoomics is due tomorrow then on thursday is maths comp and the 2unit exam. I’m ready for the exam! I so need to do good.

Anyway today was funny at the library after school, out of no where Anna’s phone goes off and her ringtone is “I Still Call Australia Home”. Everyone full looks at us and we were full laughing.

Now time for sleep again

“But what do I know, if you’re leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember”

i still miss you a lot.

I wanna breathe in and breathe out and be who I am..

heroheroinex — Mon, 28 Jul 2008 14:00:47 +0000

” I open my eyes the world seems a different place,
The colours are brighter and the air is sweet to taste.
see it’s like I woke up from a nightmare that tied me down,
I smothered and trapped insiode a sleep way underground

Its time I learned to fall,
To say the word goodbye.
To feel the sunlight on my face,
Maybe that means…

I’m ready to fly,
I wanna breathe in and breathe out and be who I am,
Let go of fear wanna feel alive.
I’m ready to fly,
The more that you hold me back you set me free,
You help my heart decide..
Maybe I’m, maybe I’m I’m ready to fly.

Where is your faith, where is your love for me?
Why do you fight the things I imagine in my dreams?
See the poison is strong, an addiction is tough to break.
But love is the hardest thing I have ever had to shake.

Its time to break these chains,
To look you in the eye,
To tell you that its over now,
Maybe that means…

I’m ready to fly,
I wanna breathe in and breathe out and be who I am,
Let go of fear wanna feel alive.
I’m ready to fly,
The more that you hold me back you set me free,
You help my heart decide..
Maybe I’m, maybe I’m I’m ready to fly.

(Give me the strength to walk away)
(Give me the strength to stay the road ahead)
Even if it’s a lonely place.
(Give me the hope to mend this heart)
(Give me the chance to see love smile, smile again)
To see love smile..

Its time I learned to fall,
To say the word goodbye.
To feel the sunlight on my face,
Maybe that means…

I’m ready to fly,
I wanna breathe in and breathe out and be who I am,
Let go of fear wanna feel alive.
I’m ready to fly,
The more that you hold me back you set me free,
You help my heart decide..
Maybe I’m, maybe I’m I’m ready to fly “

Ready to fly to a beautiful song.

Anyway about my day.
Today was athletics carnival. I nearly slept in today, lucky Kristy texted me to ask if it was on. The text woke me up. I forgot to put on my alarm today.
When i got there, i couldn’t sit becasue the stands were wet, luckily i broke a Sunday mag and sat on that. We then had the cheerleading comp. It sucked bad this year. Like always O’shane won. Then did events and novelties. I did a lot for McCormack becasue no one in that house participated. The highlight was winning the tug-of-war! Another fun thing was tying all our shoelaces together andn trying to walk. Then it stared to rain and we were all allowed to go home early. Took Dung and Nancy to my house, they got picked up and i was tired so i slept. Some person is a piss off today. Bad grammar and sentence structure. I’m reading my own speech thanks. I don’t want to sound like bad with sentences that doesn’t make any sense. I know now not to work with you again.

So tired now.
Sleep time now .

i miss you

heroheroinex — Sat, 26 Jul 2008 14:23:09 +0000

“I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still she’d a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it’s different now
You’re still here somehow
My heart won’t let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, “

yep i miss you a lot. Not that you know it. I wish we talk more often but we’ve drifted apart. I seem to drift away from so many people. I don’t know what to do. i miss you..

Miley Cyrus

Ilike Miley Cyrus. I love her music haha. So catchy! I have also been watching Hannah Montana on the Disney Channel a lot. On some days its on again and again like today. Watched so many episodes. Its so GOOD!

Another song i like right now is Broken by Lifehouse.
Its such a beautiful song. It can be interpreted in many different ways.
One interpretation is that it is about God and Jesus. About how he sacrificed himself and suffered great physical pain for our sins, so we can heal and be clense of our sins and pain we have suffered and endured. It can be about how we can find meaning in his name. Like find a reason to hold on and not give up on life or on different things. When we are in pain, we can turn to God to help us and guide us through it.

Another interpretation and how I interpret it is this person has been badly hurt and is trying to find a reason to hold on and get through everything. Or this song is true of any personal struggle. especially personal struggles that you do not reveal to anyone, and they consume you (to inevitably become a stronger person in the end). Or it can be about someone you love who is dying and you are trying to hold onto them becasue you don’t want them to leave you and you are feeling broken and hurt because of this. This song is apparently written when a friend of the singer was waiting for a heart transplant.

Either way its a very good song. Check out the live version below.

“the broken clock is a comfort
it helps me sleep tonight
maybe you can’t stop tomorrow
from stealing all my time
and I’m here still waiting
though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
like you’ve already figured out “